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bottlecaplogs2025-08-05 04:27 pm
friendlyflower) wrote in bottlecaplogs2025-08-05 04:27 pm
August Catch-all
Who: Flowey & Perrin, Bigby, Akechi, Siffrin, Siffrin (again), Chara
What: Quests!! The boy's got his non-existent hands full again! (Exploration: Yellow, Carts Before Charts, Flower Showers, Play Nice)
Where: New territory beyond the middle forest; places in and around the new Outpost
When: Throughout August
Warnings: Pokemon battling (violence/injury), severe weather, Flowey's trauma (mentions of/themes of depression, depersonalization, guilt, child death, murder)
What: Quests!! The boy's got his non-existent hands full again! (Exploration: Yellow, Carts Before Charts, Flower Showers, Play Nice)
Where: New territory beyond the middle forest; places in and around the new Outpost
When: Throughout August
Warnings: Pokemon battling (violence/injury), severe weather, Flowey's trauma (mentions of/themes of depression, depersonalization, guilt, child death, murder)
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Don't worry! I'll always remember that. [Even with their terrible memory! They're smiling, or maybe baring their teeth? Their face hurts, either way.]
[But...
unlike the other Siffrinthey never got called family. So that phrasing of Flowey's stands out. They crack their eye open and stare at him.]...are we talking about your family now? Awkward!
[....urgh. It really is hard to remind themself that Flowey is a child. Deep breath in, deep breath out, Siffrin... look away. They heave themself forward against their harness, starting the cart rolling again with a creak.]
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He knows he's reaching, now, digging through hazy half-memories that aren't his, but the reaction he gets out of Siffrin is just so precious. Did he tell Firepaw he wants to be a better person? Perhaps. Does pissing someone off feel really good? Absolutely.]
Hee hee. You tried so hard to protect them... and you left them all behind. [He remembers their first meeting-- Siffrin couldn't handle the loop anymore. They gave up. Pathetic.] Do any of them even still exist?
Nope! They're gone forever! [Of course, he doesn't know this. But Siffrin won't like hearing it. His faux-cheerful tone, with that clearly fake cartoon character voice he puts on, is even annoying himself. But it's worth it if Siffrin's getting mad.] And the best part? YOUR version of them is gone. But they still exist! They just love ANOTHER Siffrin. They'll NEVER love you.
[He laughs maniacally. The other Siffrin hasn't mentioned their friends at all, actually... but he can infer.] Oh, isn't that hilarious? What a loser! All alone in the world! Oh, but don't worry~! You're still useful!
[He knocks some materials out of the cart.] Oops, silly me! Go fetch, loser!
[1/2]
[...no, really, huh?]
[The rest is just... more of the same, it's nothing new, it's not even worse than what they've told themself (they know their friends don't exist anymore), but -]
[What other Siffrin. What in the stars is Flowey talking about. (There definitely isn't a weird feeling in their stomach they're not examining, under the confusion, something uneasy, something about someone else making the same mistakes they did -)]
[Is this... about other loops being other Siffrins, or something? They don't get it. Well, yeah, obviously, in another loop they were still loved, and in the one where they opted out and vanished their friends would have realized to hate them, just before the end, but...]
[No, this still feels so out of nowhere that they can't figure out why Flowey expects this to be so cutting?]
[2/2]
And here I thought you of all people would know how time loops worked! Dummy.
[Other Siffrins. Ha. They
wish- if it meant their friends still existed, that would almost be a nice thought, haha! But they know better.][They sit down and scratch at their ear with a back foot.] You should definitely know that the more you repeat the same thing, the more people zone out! [Isn't that what they both did, after all?]
[The tip of their tail is twitching, agitated with annoyance, but they just stretch like a cat and flop down on their side.] You know what, though? You're right, I could use a nap right now.
[Flowey can just clean up his own mess!!]
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[... What the heck? Why didn't that work? Are they stupid, or is their denial that strong? Flowey is so bewildered he forgets to keep up the whole 'evil' thing.
Nearby, he can feel Mudsdale glowering at him. Slowly, silently, Flowey gathers the materials he scattered with his vines.]
... Really? Well, believe whatever you want.
[Coming down from the rush of being cruel is what he imagines a hangover is like. He just feels stupid, now. His master insult didn't even work. Ugh!]
... You look just like him when you're like that. Firepaw, I mean.
[1/2, again.......]
Are they stupid, or is their denial that strong? Yes.][Siffrin's ear twitches when they hear Mudsdale's heavy footsteps approaching. They lift their head, a pang of anxiety jolting through their chest - did Mudsdale hear them say anything about time loops? ...if so, Mudsdale isn't commenting. But Siffrin can still feel their heart rate kicking up; while they're continuing to face away from Flowey, they take another deep breath in and let it out.]
[It doesn't stop them from tensing their shoulders.]
[Siffrin just ignores Flowey's first comment, but the flat look they give him at the second one is pretty clearly them waiting for the punchline to drop. When Flowey doesn't follow it up with another attempt to dig at them, their expression becomes more unsure.]
[2/2]
[They look away again, but this time it's for a different reason.] I guess... it must just be a cat thing...?
[Or they picked it up from him, without realizing. Unlike some of the other things Firepaw taught them on purpose.]
[. . .]
The Canopy feels like... ["like it's missing something," they almost want to say, but that's really obvious, isn't it, Siffrin? Stupid. They settle on,] ...it's weirder not to have him running around than it would be if - if even Ribombee disappeared, all of a sudden.
[They actually have a more positive opinion of their guild leader than most, but at the same time, it's not like they've talked to Ribombee a lot!]
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[...]
... It's quiet back there. [He hates the quiet. His mind wanders. Memories come crawling back.] You didn't want to be there either. [An observation, plainly stated-- but also, an admission.]
... you know. Ha ha.
When I first got here, this place sure didn't make a good first impression! I was lost underground with Diglett and Dugtrio hunting me down and that stupid fog everywhere! I almost died! [Which maybe Siffrin would've preferred. He moves on, not giving them the satisfaction of a snarky comment.]
And then that idiot showed up. Defended me. Guided me. He was the first one to...
[Come when he called for help.]
...
That's what I was trying to say, you stupid moron. It should've been me. I know better than to think that bad things shouldn't happen to good people. Bad things happen to good people all the time! I've seen it! I've caused it!
... So, why...?
[He doesn't expect an answer. When his mind catches up with his mouth, he'll be embarrassed for having been vulnerable around Siffrin, of all people. It doesn't escape him that, in his attempt to process his feelings (or seeming lack thereof), he was just tormenting them a minute ago. In his mind, it only proves his point.]
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[There's a lot they're failing or refusing to process about Flowey themself, because of what it would require thinking about. But they can't really treat him like they would Bo - other kids. Maybe Lusamine or Emporio could keep Flowey talking from here, or Firepaw could have... but Siffrin doubts they can.]
[They're not exactly good at being vulnerable either, anyway.]
[...so, maybe it's fine to go with their second impulse? Even if it's not entirely true anymore.] If I have to stay healthy, so do you~
[...]
The Universe has a sick sense of humor, doesn't it...? Really likes tragedies. [Something something a kid definitely shouldn't be feeling that way, but another time looper? Yeah. It should've been them instead of Firepaw too. (Neither of them should still exist, really, but Siffrin so much more so - they don't have the excuse of being a child.)]
[...oh well.]
[They stand up and shake themself off, straps of the harness jingling, then tug the cart the rest of the way toward the impatiently waiting Mudsdale. She has a much larger wagon, set up where the path through the trees is wider and she can carry a much heavier load - time to transfer!]
wrapped?
That's an interesting turn of phrase, though-- 'the universe'. He files that away for later.]
It could be a comedy if your sense of humor didn't go out back and stab itself to death. [And the little asshole's back! Thank goodness!
With Mudsdale watching, he actually makes a token effort to help transfer the materials. He doesn't say that Siffrin did most of the work, of course.]