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bottlecaplogs2025-11-11 04:03 pm
loopsiedaisy) wrote in bottlecaplogs2025-11-11 04:03 pm
November+December Catch-All
Who: Siffrin (Shinx) + Shoka, Laios, Cedric, Chara, Anasui, Parvati
What: The fallout of the Network Incident, and also quests. Sometimes both at once!
Where: Spire, Canopy, wherever various search quests take them
When: One thread backdated to October, otherwise throughout November (including during the snowstorm) and December
Warnings: Potentially Siffrin's warnings (definitely spoilers & alluded-to suicidal ideation in Shoka's thread), the usual quest peril
What: The fallout of the Network Incident, and also quests. Sometimes both at once!
Where: Spire, Canopy, wherever various search quests take them
When: One thread backdated to October, otherwise throughout November (including during the snowstorm) and December
Warnings: Potentially Siffrin's warnings (definitely spoilers & alluded-to suicidal ideation in Shoka's thread), the usual quest peril
(CHEERING) 1/2
[The words slip out before she can think them over. How can they think she didn't want to see them? She tried to chase them down, didn't she, even after they literally tossed her aside? She told them she wanted to talk, told them she had their back...
But she knows exactly how they could think that. They don't even confidently call themself Siffrin anymore, and it would be a lie to say that she wasn't alarmed and upset by the sudden changes in them. She also knows exactly how big of a deal it is for them to tell her so much and to say that they should have talked to her. She understands because the same is true of her.
The expression in her eyes shifts from what looks like anger (but is closer to hurt) to surprise, then to regret.]
Maybe... that's my fault. I thought you were done with me...
[And as a result, she'd been standoffish when she saw them again, reverting back to the guarded, prickly creature she was in front of all strangers. When they arrived to help search for Noelle, she'd barely even looked at them, and now she can't even stomach the malasadas they went through the trouble of bringing her. None of that could have helped.]
I'm—sorry, too. [For...?] For that, and for—being a jerk in general. I mean, even more so than usual. Everything's... really sucked lately.
[But she shouldn't have made that their problem when they were going through enough as it was. Even so—they asked her once to tell them whenever she had a bad week. Despite herself, she's been wanting desperately to do just that. Noelle is back at the clinic after telling her she wished they never met, she misses Siffrin, she can't stand the thought of eating, her head is killing her, she's been thinking of disappearing again, of water and dust and no expectations for her, and she can't even make one stupid art project about it—]
This sucks, too. Not—this, or you, just... Everything that happened to you. Is happening to you. Wh-whatever... I should've...
[Should've... what? Been there for them? Not been so weird about it all? Would that have even been possible? Pathetically, her breath (the breath she doesn't even need) hitches.]